Chère Firda Ayu

I was stalking Ayu's blog (Hihi sebab rindu gila laa. Terharu cepat!) and look what I found ;

Awww you one sweet thangg! I miss you more my Katy Perry/ Lady Gagap! :p
F laaa, serious doh rindu gila. I miss all of our good old times together.
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time and go back to school :(

HAHAHA this was almost three years ago, when I still had my braces on. Effing long huh? Btw I look so dark beside youuu -.- Dear Firda Ayu, I can't wait to see you. I have so much to tell, so be ready to hear my non-stop story telling when I get back k? So much love ♥

Leaving On A Jet Plane

Bonjour! I don't know what came over me, but I suddenly feel like posting pictures from the day of my departure. Tqa b once said "Kau ni memang lembab sikit post gambar". What she said is undeniably true. This was like, half a year ago -.- Haha well actually, I was arranging all pictures from my hard disk and I found these. Or maybe just because I miss you guys. Or 'cause I wanna update something in my blog. TEEHEE (nigahiga's style)

This is a video by my brother. Matin, Y U SO SWEET?! I didn't even know he did this for me. Just right after everything has settled down, I transfered all photos from my cam's memory card to my Mac and I found this. Not gonna lie my eyes were a bit teary tho :p Kak Da lalalove Matin sho muchie much :*

I'm just gonna analyse a few things from this video before I move on to pictures ;

1. Caught on tape, Dewi "Lawanya pakai tudung. Siapa, boyfriend eh?". Ayu "Haa ha'ah" LOL 
2. Syera said "Ayu, Ayu kat sana jangan lupa Syera yang cantik ni". Ayuuu? Patutnya Nabila la kan?! HAHAHA
3. Time Dewi & Edy cakap "Hiii saya Dewi, Hii saya Edy", Tqa b tengah cover cover, tgh get ready nak tangkap gambar 'cause she didn't know my brother was recording HAHA
4. Caught on tape, my dad "Lawanyaaa" Shireen "Eh, takdelah hihihi" (sambil cover gigi) HAHAHAHAH ayah sempat lagi -.-"
5. Ayah's face was so emotionless that night. 'Cause he flew over to France a week later haha.
6. The whole situation was supposed to be sad and gloomy, but everybody seemed so happy that I was leaving. Why?

 This video reminds me that I'm loved. I love being loved :)

Some of my girls who came on that day to say goodbye. The rest couldn't 'cause it was the 5th day of raya so some of them were still celebrating in kampung and some were registering for their new semester, so yeah. It would've been nicer if all of them were there in KLIA tho :(

Haha! Everone was trying to grab me in this picture LOL look at Syera. She was holding my thumb -.- Ibu jari pun jadi lah kan Syera?

See that blue luggage over there? My parents had to bring that one home 'cause apparently, I've gone wayyy beyond the limit. I was supposed to make sure everything is below 30 kg but guess what? The total weight of my stuff was 58 kg -__________-" Over gila kan? That was like the limit set for two person! But that's okay 'cause my dad brought that luggage over to France a week later. Love you daddy :*

Oh I was standing very awkwardly in that picture, by the way -.-

Damn, my friends are all gorgeous! God knows how much I miss them right now :'(

Okay sempat check gambar lol :p

Abang-abang sedih kewww? :p

Some of them came with baju kurung and baju melayu. Very semangat raya haha!

Apa kesss?!

With Tira's sister, Kak Nas, and her mum. Her flight to Korea was on the same night.

It was almost time to go. I was about to cryyyy muahaha

Now more showing my teeth like in other pictures. Muka baru lepas nangis, senyum pun tak ikhlas dah. Sedih lettew.

Thanks guys for coming. And thanks for all the gifts you gave me too. Despite the fact that it was a busy day (yelah, raya kot), and that my flight was at night, y'all managed to come and say goodbye. It means a lot to me :')

I CANNOT WAIT FOR MAY I TELL YOU

Hey MTV, welcome to my crib.

Waddup guys? It's been awhile since I last updated my blog. It's so dusty now and it needs some serious cleaning! So I've promised to some friends that I'll be posting up some pictures of my current room. Now that DALF C1 is over, I finally get the chance to fulfill my promise. I know I'm like, 3 months late, so sorry about that, but hey, better late than never right? ;)

So bienvenue to my room, my sanctuary.

My body and soul are devoted to that desk now. This is where I spend most of my time, just sitting there for hours, either playing with the computer or studying. Or singing along with my guitar.

I sometimes hate the fact that the fridge is so so near to my bed. It's the main reason why I gained some pounds for the last three months. Whenever I feel hungry, I can just grab something out of the fridge without leaving the bed. It's that easy -.-"

This is for sure, one of my favourite parts of the room. It completely shows the girly side of me lol

Thanks Maul for those Rubi earrings and thanks Ayu for the Diva ones. I'll be wearing 'em every time I think of you guys ♥

Yeah it's the ring. The ring that was stucked on my middle finger for five torturing days. The ring that I spent two hours of cutting and scissoring to get it off my finger. It was the day I've sworn myself that I'll never ever put a ring on my middle finger ever again. Ever.

Aaaaaaaah hantu! Laaaari!

I, who never sleep alone before, am sleeping alone now. The scaredy cat is no longer scared anymore :p



For those who haven't watched this yet, it's my latest cover, in my new room trololol

The room is just 9 meter squared yet comfy and enough for me, but the monthly rent is slightly higher than what it's worth tho. So I'm gonna move out with my friends, to a new apartment, maybe around March like that. And I'll definitely make another post about my future room :D

Till then.

Look at the bright side.

I've always wanted to attend a normal high school instead of a boarding school.

I've always wanted to go to a private university.

Because I wanted to live that kind of life, y'know.

But, 

If I didn't go for boarding school, I wouldn't stand a chance to learn french.

If I didn't learn french, of course I wouldn't get into this program.

If I didn't get into this program, I wouldn't be a scholar and go to France to study.

I wouldn't be here, right now.

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately.

What could be the blessing in disguise?

I've figured out that if I attended a normal high school, with that much of freedom,

I could've been influenced by lots of . . bad stuffs, y'know.

I'm not that strong, I can be influenced easily I have to admit.

So I could've done so many things beyond the limit, could've committed lots of sins.

But by attending boarding school, I was protected from all of these possibilities.

Plus, I heard being a teacher dapat banyak pahala.

If the students apply the knowledge we gave 'em, dapat pahala.

If they pass the knowledge to someone else, dapat pahala some more.

And if that someone applies it too, dapat pahala.

So I thought, that could cover up some of the sins I've comitted.

I knowww, that will never be enough as the sins I've comitted are like,

98765432123456789 times bigger than the pahala I'll get.

But at least, that's something. Better than nothing, right?

So what I'm trying to say here is ;

GOD HAS BIGGER PLANS FOR YOU

Be grateful.

Because this video makes me feel so happy :)

I think I've just raped the play button. I keep on replaying it over and over again,
so I think I should be generous enough to share this with you :)

I love everything about this video.

The blue streak in his hair matches his blue blazer & and her hair matches her blazer. His cute smile and the way he looks at her is just too sweet. He's adorable & she's beautiful. It would be nice if they're dating for real, no? Hehe :) They made life look a lot simpler somehow. I've been viewing Meekakitty's videos since 2009 and she never fails to make me smile. She doesn't mind making the silliest faces ever. She's such an inspiration. Okay quit babbling now.

I'lljuststopherekbye.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?